Nobody can sell a satisfied man
Contentment is the one thing the whole machine can’t put a price on—which is exactly why choosing it is sabotage.
The third of three.
Most afternoons, if the weather’s making sense, I take my scooter out through the hills behind Đà Lạt for no reason at all. That’s the important part, the no reason. I am not commuting. I am not training for anything. I am not, despite what my watch keeps hopefully suggesting, closing a ring. I point the bike at a road I half-recognise, the greenhouses give way to pine and then to the long terraced drop where the coffee grows, and at some point I can never quite time, my nervous system quietly lets go of a rope it’s been holding since roughly 1975.
There is no metric improving while this happens. Nothing is being optimised. If you sat a productivity coach on the pillion seat he would weep softly into my shoulder blades. And it is, without much competition, the best my body feels all week.
I mention this because I have come to believe it is, by the standards of the world that raised me, a borderline criminal act.
Here is a thing nobody selling you anything wants you to sit with for longer than about four seconds: the entire apparatus runs on you wanting more. Not on you having more—having is a finished transaction, and a finished transaction is no use to anybody. On you wanting. The hunger is the product. The platform needs you to want the next video, the supplement company needs you to want the better body, the hustle merchant needs you to want the bigger number, and the whole shimmering cathedral of self-improvement needs you to wake each morning in a state of low-grade dissatisfaction with the man you currently are, because a man at peace with himself is, from a revenue standpoint, an absolute disaster.
Contentment, you see, has no market. You cannot upsell a satisfied man. He doesn’t scroll for the fix because the itch isn’t there. He doesn’t brawl in the comments because he has, alarmingly, nothing to prove. He cannot be sold the powder, the course, the membership, the watch, or the second watch to keep an eye on the first watch. He has wandered off the casino floor with his chips still in his pocket, and the house—which has built a careful and profitable model of every human weakness except this one—simply has no card to play against a man who has decided that he has enough.
So they had to do something clever, and credit where it’s due, they did. They took dissatisfaction, the engine of the entire business, and they rebranded it as a virtue. Never be satisfied. Stay hungry. Comfort is the enemy. There’s a whole genus of man now, megaphone in one hand and protein shake in the other, explaining to an audience of shattered twenty-three-year-olds that the discontent gnawing at them is not a problem to be understood but the holy fire of ambition, and that the correct response is to pour petrol on it at five in the morning. Gary Vaynerchuk built an empire telling people to crush it, and I don’t doubt the man means well, but “crush it” is a sentence with no full stop in it—no evening, no enough, no moment where you set the thing down and put the kettle on. It is a treadmill with a subscription model. The discontent they’ve cultivated in you was never your ambition. It is their inventory.
And the cruelty of it—there’s always a cruelty, that’s how you locate the engine—is that it works best on precisely the men who most need the opposite. The lonely one. The lost one. The one whose nervous system is already running hot and who is now being assured, by a very confident man on a screen, that the cure for feeling terrible is to want harder. You do not calm a frightened animal by setting a slightly larger goal in front of it and blowing an air horn. But there is no money in saying so, and so it does not get said.
I should declare an interest here, because I spent the better part of forty years as a fully paid-up wanting machine myself, and a loud one.
I wanted the career, and then the bigger career. I wanted to be early, to be right, to be the man on the chair telling the room what was coming next. I wanted, if I’m honest about it, to be needed, which is just wanting in a more respectable coat. And I chased the lot of it at a flat sprint until somewhere around 2014 the chasing broke me cleanly in half, the way it eventually halves most men who’ve quietly confused their worth with their output, and I was left sitting in the wreckage of a life I had optimised directly into the ground, asking what, precisely, all the wanting had been in aid of. The honest answer was that I had never once defined the finish line, because the men I’d learned ambition from had been scrupulously careful never to admit there was one.
What fixed it was not a mindset, and I want to be very clear about that, because the mindset industry will cheerfully try to sell you this lesson back at a markup. I did not think my way to contentment. I did not journal it into being or affirm it at a bathroom mirror. I moved to the other side of the planet, to a town in the hills where the air is cool and the coffee grows down the road and the pace is set by people who worked out several generations back that a life is a thing you inhabit, not a project you ship. I changed the room, and the man in the room changed with it. The wanting wasn’t defeated in single combat. It just went quiet, the way a dog goes quiet the moment you finally take it for the walk it has been asking about all morning.
So here is the move, put as plainly as the subject will allow: choosing contentment, on purpose, in a culture engineered around the clock to keep you wanting, is the most subversive thing a man can still do with what remains of his one life.
Not complacency. I want to hold that distinction up to the light, because the machine smudges it deliberately and turns a tidy profit on the smudge. A content man is not a finished man. I am content and still curious about very nearly everything, still working, still riding into hills I haven’t seen yet, still—heaven help me—learning things at sixty-seven I’d have been a good deal better off knowing at thirty. Contentment did not switch the engine off. It only took my hands off the throat of my own life. The striving the machine had installed in me, the joyless, finish-line-free, permanently-behind kind, that one had to die, and I do not miss it, and I attended the funeral in an extremely good mood. But the curiosity, the work, the love, the wanting that has an evening in it and a kettle at the end of it—those all stayed. They were the good kind the whole time. The machine simply never stocked them, because there is no recurring revenue in a man who is content to be exactly where he is.
I built the road that sells the wanting. I’ve stood at the far end of it and told you the brochure quietly leaves out the only destination any of us is certain to reach. So let me finish the thought the only honest way I have left, which is from a scooter in the hills with no ring closed, no number climbing, and a nervous system that has, for this one afternoon at least, set down its rope.
They can sell you almost anything. They have built an entire civilisation on the things you can sell a frightened man who has been taught to want more. The single thing they have never once found a way to sell, the one account that stays stubbornly, gloriously empty no matter how they try to bill it, is a man who has looked his own life square in the face and decided that it is, against all the marketing ever aimed at him, enough.
Be that man. It is the closest thing to sabotage you will ever get away with sitting down.
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